I'm so broken inside.  I'm so filled with pain.

I had a nightmare last night that someone (something?) was in my room, and I could see it in the moonlight, but then suddenly it was pitch black, and I could hear it breathing and getting closer, so I rolled out of bed and crawled into the hall and then I don't remember any more.  I woke up this morning on the couch with no memory of getting there...this sleepwalking, it scares me.  It reminds me of Paranormal Activity when she's standing over her boyfriend for four hours.  I feel like I have a demon, too, like her, only my demon is my past. 

I just want to be okay again.