I got through my first night of work so much better than I ever thought I would. 

Having C. there helped a ton, because I knew her from Presby, and everyone was so nice.  It helped, too, that the nursing home is on the smaller side, and there weren't a thousand people running everywhere.  It was quieter and more laid back and I felt so comfortable there by the end of the night.  I'm exhausted from smiling and laughing all night, even when I didn't want to, and I have a headache, but I think that I CAN do this.  I'm relieved...I can be normal, I can have a full time job like a normal person, I can have friends at work....it'll be okay....maybe.