I start work tomorrow, and I'm feeling better about it. 

S. cut and dyed my hair tonight, so I'm feeling a bit better about how I look, although I'm still disgusted by the weight I've put on because of the meds and having two months of doing nothing but lay around.  I can't wait until I have money to buy a bike....

I think that I can handle working...I can be normal.  I hope so, so badly.