I found this on another blog and think it's a neat idea.
Soooooo day one-Something I hate about myself
One thing I hate about myself is my inability to follow through on anything in my life. Example-nursing school at St. Margaret's. As soon as I made one mistake in clinical I gave up and stopped trying, and failed out as a result. Another example-counseling. I'll go for a couple of months, one year is my longest, and then get tired of trying and give up. And even during counseling, I don't try very hard. I'll talk about something absolutely stupid that really didn't affect me THAT badly instead of the major issues. I shut down so easily.
I do believe that depression has something to do with this, but I also think that I'm just naturally lazy. I will always look for the easy way out. I'd rather lay on the couch and read and watch tv for hours then put that same amount of time into homework or a project. I have no idea how to change myself, other than just force myself to follow through on things-I think if I had someone yelling at me to finish it'd help, but yeah, there's no one.
The list of things I hate about myself could go on for miles. I hate my illness, I hate that I can't manage money, I hate that I buy things that I don't need, I hate that I'm alone with no family, I hate that I'm bitchy a lot of the time to my best friends, I hate that I treated my sister like shit growing up and now she's a drug addict with three kids under the age of 3, I hate that I smoke again after quitting for 10 months, I hate that I didn't tell Chris how I felt when I had the chance, I hate that I lost my job when I loved it there, I hate that I whine, I hate how immature I am and feel, I hate that I've gained so much weight, I hate that I don't know how to cook, I hate that I don't know how to do my makeup very well, I hate that I don't know how to do my hair other than straighten it or pull it up, I hate how much I sleep all the time, I hate that I need a sleeping pill to fall asleep, I hate that I haven't gotten a degree yet, I hate MYSELF!
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
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